From 2009 til now, a lot in my life had changed. My muzik, my living situation and more or less, a lot of the people around me. I get messages saying I've changed, I'm brand new since I got with my baby mama, I ain't got time for my REAL friends, etc. Question: have you ever stopped to ask yourself why I might have changed? It wasn't for me, my baby mama, you or anybody else with an opinion. It was for my son and him alone. I was locked up in July of 2009 for some BS and was facing 2-4 years for nothing. At the time, I was wildin like the world was ending the next day, from trappin and multiple robberies in the same night to just letting go of all responsibility and doing what I wanted with no consequences. I felt this was my just punishment after all the ish I had done and hadn't gotten caught for. I remember praying while I was in my cell, asking God if He freed me from this situation that I would always be here for my son no matter what. I was released on house arrest for one year and on October 9th, 2009, I got the call that my girlfriend was in labor. I called my P.O. and told her I had to go to the hospital, she gave me clearance and my mama made the trip happen. When I got there, my lol man was a while away, but I planned on waiting the entire time. A few hours into waiting, I got a call on the hospital phone from my P.O. saying that I had to go home because I'd been out too long. I respectfully told her I can't and she said I would be put back in jail if I wasn't home in the next few hours. I was there when he was born and then spent the night with him just because I was so attached and jail couldnt pull me away. Sacrifice my freedom just to see my child welcomed into this world without any hesitation.
In the next few months old friends dwindled away, rumors spread like wildfire in California and my life was on the fritz. I blamed myself for not having any friends simply because I became reclusive and focused on raising my son, and then I had an epiphany. I changed for the better so I could still be here for my family and focus on my career, and got criticized because I wasnt who everybody was used to. Well life check: 650 songs greater, a full fledged company up and running founded by myself and Hiro, and a little boy that can bring me joy like no other. You dont have to accept the decisions I made, just respect them. I apologize to anybody that feels like I changed based on my relationship status because initially that was the case, but I haven't been in a relationship in a while and I still keep to myself and my son, so no speculation on that. Just know that I did change, and you gotta realize it was for the better, because I don't have a father/father figure in my life, and I refuse to let Amarii grow up the same way. Like it, love it or shove it up ya ass shawdy, D.R.P. is still D.R.P.
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